What did I sign up for??

The running... oh the running.
Last week I started using mapmyrun.com. I love that website. It is so easy to get your route mapped and be consistent with your running. I am unable to go to the track anymore w/ football practice starting after school. I liked the track bc I knew how far I had gone and all that. Now mapmyrun takes care of it.

I ran and timed my first 3 miles on Thursday this past week. I had actually gone out on Tuesday and ran, but ended up only doing 2.7 miles by mistake... oops!

I ran my first 3.11 miles in 43:13. I actually almost gave up, multiple times. I wasn't hydrated enough and about halfway threw I just was over it. I was so tired and thirsty... I just wanted to sit. I kept going though and pushed through. It sounds kind of cheesy, but the song "The Fighter" by Gym Class Heroes came on  my ipod when I was getting over the hill. I was fighting to finish and that song kept me going. So, I finished my first 3 miles and I was pumped! Sore, dehydrated and wanting to vomit... but I was excited!!

I took 2 days off after that. Friday I didn't workout at all. I needed a rest day. Saturday I got up and went for a nice walk on the trail by my new place. It was so relaxing going out at 8:30 a.m. while it is still cool and going for a walk.

That bring me to today. I went out and ran another 3.11 miles. I did a lot better in terms of running more often. However, I got to that hill again and AGAIN I said "I can't do this!". I started walking and then running for a few seconds and walking again. I knew I could do better. I got to a point where I chanted over and over in my head (and out loud a bit)... "What are you going to do when you see the finish line? Give up or push?"  so, I kept repeating..."Give up? or push?... I pushed. I finished it out in 42:34.  Better than my first time out and better than I thought I was going to do.

So the training continues. The race is September 15th. I hope I am going to be ready. At this point I am still nervous I won't be able to finish. I have so many people supporting me and I don't want to let anyone down.

Side note: Still obsessing over the scale!! So this week I am trying something new. (not really new, but I am going to stick with it). After the morning weigh in... the scale is getting put under the sink and staying there until Friday morning. I really don't feel I can handle a whole week w/o knowing what my weight is, so I will go for a few days. That is sad, but I am being honest. So! A few days without obsessing over the number will be good for me.

Anyone else have that problem of obsessing over the number???