Sunday, June 7, 2015

It Is Hard to Ask For Help...

I changed my lifestyle on my own. I pushed myself and figured everything out for myself. Of course I had the support and advice from friends and family, but ultimately it was me. No trainer, no nutrition counseling and no doctors... just me, myself and I. I never could afford the big gyms, personal trainers and nutrition counseling when I started. Everyone has their own journey... this is how mine has been for 4 years.

I have been trying to figure out how to change things up since I haven't been losing weight for a while. My old faithfuls are not working for me right now and ultimately it leaves me very frustrated.

I have done a lot in the past few years. I ran 3 half marathons, did countless runs and even tried and obstacle course. I love running. It is a passion of mine. It just isn't enough to lose this last 50 lbs. I know my runs would be a whole lot better if I could get to that goal weight. The fact that it is summer now and the heat is here, it makes keeping up the running that much harder.

So between the heat and the fact that I am at a loss of what to do next... I am asking for help. I have decided to join a gym that you go through 8 weeks of different types of fitness classes and nutrition counseling before doing the membership. It is pricey, which when I first started this journey... would have made it impossible for me to do, but I am at a place right now where I can swing the price. I think it is a great option at this time. It is just going to be incredibly difficult to focus on the classes and only running a day or two a week.

They have a different class every day. The first one I am taking: Kickboxing :) SUPER excited for that one. I don't have a clue what they do as far as nutrition counseling, will update you on that once I go through it. I already know what I need to do for nutrition as far as that goes. What I am hoping to learn is the right nutrition for physical fitness. Again, I think that will help my running game with learning more about what to eat and when to eat to keep my energy up.

Confession time: I feel like I am admitting defeat by doing this. I have always been able to figure out how to continue on this journey, but at this point I am at a loss. I am not getting results I should be getting from my workouts and diet. The motivation is there when I am on my own, just not where it was when I first started. I know I need this class to light a fire under my butt... I just feel like I failed some how.

I know that is totally crazy, but I have been putting this off for a while because of these feelings. I have gotten too comfortable in thinking "I know what I am doing". I did  lose 130 lbs. on my own... but that next level needs to be started to lose the rest and I just don't have it in me to do it on my own.

I hope I will love this class. I do have some nerves with this as I am usually solo in my workouts. That self consciousness that I have had in the past is slowly creeping in. I have done fitness classes on a small scale... this is something completely new. As long as it isn't gym class all over again, I should be alright. Thank goodness I already have a good friend that attends!

Here is to new adventures and hopefully being successful in losing the rest of this weight.