Tuesday, January 20, 2015

I Will Be Happier Once I Lose the Weight...

I have no idea how many times I said that to myself when I was over 300 lbs... 100? 200? Infinity??

I would say infinity, because I am still saying it to myself. I have been in a major funk for weeks. Not losing weight like I had before is making me over think everything that I know. I can feel the insecurities building up. It has been a really big rollercoaster with trying to stay positive and getting so frustrated. Losing weight on a regular basis was amazing. I was so happy to see the scale, happy to get the compliments and happy to lose the dress sizes. Once that high stops... it is depressing to say the least.

I hate to admit it... but here it is... I gained 6 lbs. in the past few months. It is painful to say, as I had prided myself of never gaining more than a few lbs. and that was always for a short amount of time. This time, I gained it and kept it on.

I am working on getting it off, have actually made great strides and have 5 lbs. to go before I get to my lowest again. If I say this setback didn't make me panic... everyone and their mothers would know I would be lying.  (this coming from the girl who cried big tears over eating French fries)

This is real though. This is life. I am going to be gaining (only slightly!) weight and losing weight, the rest of my life. To think that I wouldn't, was na├»ve. I can't panic, stress out, get depressed or throw in the towel when this happens. I need to work my ass off to get back on a steady track.

I have been feeling sorry, frustrated and angry... mostly at myself and my poor little scale for not showing the number I wanted it to. What I really needed to do was take a big breath and move forward. No more pouting, no more fits. Keeping my head up so I can live a happier life.

So that has been my secret. I've kept a smile on this face, but inside I was frustrated and upset. This journey isn't glamorous and there isn't always success. Hopefully this post helps others that get super frustrated. It isn't always going to be roses, you won't be happier once you lose weight... Life happens. There is always something that gets in the way. A lot of your happiness is based on how you handle the frustrating moments. Make those moments count and let it push you forward.

Thursday, January 1, 2015

A New Year with NO Resolutions...

First of all, let me just say... HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

This is the time of year where everyone is talking about their "new year resolutions". Everything from goals to be: nicer, more adventure, learn a new skill and the BIG ONE... Lose weight.

So, I gotta ask... What was your New Years Resolution from 2014? Do you remember?

I know mine was to reach my weight loss goal. Since I obviously haven't been blasting it everywhere, you can safely assume I did not reach that goal. lol

It hit me the other day that having a weight loss goal as a resolution is kind of like saying... "I will start on Monday..." Why do I need to make a resolution at the beginning of the year to lose weight? Why not  continue on my journey? It is a lifetime thing, not just a year thing. To make a promise to myself about reaching that goal in 2015 would be setting myself up for a fail and a lie if I don't make it. I am not more motivated by making a resolution... I am more motivated with just trying to stay healthy and make good choices.

So I came to the decision... there will NOT be a resolution this year.

"Wanna start the new year right??! well here is a weight loss solution for you..."

For the last 3 years I have seen the gym fill up to the max of new people starting their resolution for the new year... and every year I see them dwindle one by one until by March, I would say, it is back to the "regulars" at the gym. Don't get me wrong, I love seeing new people at the gym, but it has sadly become my expectation that more than half won't be coming back by the spring. The weight loss resolution has become so commercial as well. There is always sales on gym memberships, ads for fitness sales and the fad diets (everyone knows how I feel about those!!) are everywhere! It seems that this happens mostly at the beginning of the year. Especially in the stores where they promote the fitness equipment and new weight loss pill at the front of the store. It is very frustrating to see year after year.

Don't fall into the trap of "I am going to lose weight this year.". Make the decision to make healthier choices and you won't have to make a resolution that you may not meet. It is a more positive way to start off a new year!

What are your thoughts on new year resolutions?