Monday, February 23, 2015

Once An Emotional Eater... Always?

I. Am. An. Emotional. Eater.

There... I said it, admitted it and have owned it. I know there are many out there like me. I once felt the shame, but now have accepted it. I associate food with happiness, sadness, frustration and even boredom. I always thought it would be something that I could over come. If I had enough willpower, I would get to a point where I wouldn't have those urges... okay, so I am not always right.

For the most part, I can override the habit of literally feeding my emotions. I can workout, run, shop (not the best either! lol) and find something, ANYTHING to not eat bc of my mood. Once I realized that I could  distract myself enough to not indulge, I was pretty amazed. I don't always get past it though, I have miss steps, but at the end of the day, the thing we must focus on is... I am making better choices than I used to.

The reason why I have brought this subject up, is the fact that I have had some interesting things going on lately. Some new, potentially exciting things and a little loneliness. It has made it difficult to not stuff the emotions with food. I have been letting those rollercoaster feelings run my decisions of what to eat and when to eat the past few weekends. I have caved, I have worked out... I have caved some more and shopped a lot. I am human. No one can expect a 100% on point healthy lifestyle. If you are... you are going to set yourself up for failure. I have survived my emotional eating and so will every emotional eater out there, that wants to. That is the  main point.

You have to want to get yourself past it. Hiding the emotions behind frozen yogurt and gummy bears (my food of choice this time around!) doesn't help anyone and sure as hell doesn't make you feel better after eating them. If you get that 90% of the time... you are golden.

I shall take my 10% failure of the past few weeks and try to learn from them. Not saying I will never again allow my emotions to dictate what/when I eat... but I will try my damnedest to make it as infrequent as possible

Don't strive to be perfect, no one is. Strive to be better than you were yesterday.

Sunday, February 1, 2015

Working Towards The Normal and A Little Conversation...

My last post, I confessed that I had gained 6 lbs. in a few months. I was off my "normal" routine of working out and having calorie conscious meals.

Since then, I have taken things extremely seriously and have logged my calories every day. Gotten to the gym every day that I normally would and have been more conscious of the choices I have been making. In saying allllll of that, I am happy to announce that I am back and only 2 lbs. away from my lowest weight.

It is so easy to get lazy and lose that control over the healthy lifestyle. Don't get me wrong, my choices weren't horrible. Certainly not even near as bad as before I started losing the weight. However, they weren't the right choices to expect to still continue to lose weight. I am the first to admit to having control issues and wanting things perfect. It is something that I try to work on, but with still having 50 lbs. to lose, I have to keep some of that control.

It is still going to take a bit to get in that healthy rhythm and get back to losing consistently, but I feel like I am in a different mindset. I am more positive about it and know that I am getting there.

Conversation piece...

I read this article the other day about "myths to achieving a healthy lifestyle". One of the "myths" they had was when people say that it takes "will power" to change a lifestyle. They did not agree with the notion and thought it was BS...I wholeheartedly disagree with their opinion over this.

 If anyone has a personal history of emotional/secret eating like I do, they KNOW that will power is one thing you have to have a whole lot of. One has to over think their decisions, stay in the habit of tracking everything and getting themselves to keep going. That is willpower and it is NEEDED to change any habit.

When one already knows what they need to do to lose weight the healthy way and still doesn't do it bc of their personal relationship, emotional connection or just plain abuse of food, it is more than learning how to eat. It is about overcoming those metal blocks, insecurities and everything else that goes along with one's relationship towards food.

What are your thoughts over this? Do you think willpower is important or BS?

Would love to hear your opinions! (ALL opinions are respected and welcome! Wither we agree or disagree about the topic)

Check out my new recipe as well! Some deliciousness from the pantry.