My first running injury... No one should be surprised that I would trip and fall on one of my runs. What I am sure many are surprised about is that it took so long! Yes, I indeed fell on my run last week. I tripped over the uneven sidewalk and landed on my hands and knees. A few abrasions and bruises, nothing broken or sprained. I then got up and... ran another 1/2 mile or so. I know right?! I felt like I could do it, until it really started hurting. All in all I was lucky it wasn't worse.
Unfortunatly I was supposed to run a 5k on that Saturday. I was thinking I could up until the night before. I actually held some hope the day of, that I actually went and ran around my apartment building. But, to my disappointment, I decided to sit this one out. I still went to the race and felt left out, but was proud of my friends that ran the race.
So! I am back at it. I was on the elliptical tonight for 43 minutes and went 4 miles. My knee hurts a tish, but I need to get ready for Thursday. On Thursday I will be running in a 5 mile Turkey Trot! I had my heart set on this race so I am glad I rested on Saturday.
Now lets talk about feelings... I was so disappointed I wasn't going to be able to run. Those are some thoughts I NEVER thought I would have. I actually got teary eyed on Friday night and my poor friend had to talk me through it. (She went through the "omg I eat french fries" moment, so she is technically a pro now.) I am always afraid of disappointing. However, no one would expect me to run when I was hurt... so who was I trying to not disappoint?? It is that guilty feeling that comes about once in awhile. Feeling guilty over nothing... *sigh*
As much as those feelings can eat me up inside, they keep me accountable. One reason I know I won't go back to my old ways, is a fear of disappointing. Not the best motive, but hey I will take what I can get. I also know I will never go back to my old ways bc I never want to feel that bad again.
However, I do need to learn to cut myself some slack. Between apologizing for falling and ruining our run...(Yeah, I know! I did that multiple times) or apologize for having to walk for a few seconds, I need to realize it is perfectly OKAY to not be perfect at every second of the day. I am going to fall short and I can't act as if it is the end of the world. I KNOW I will brush myself off and get going again... so why do I put myself through those guilty feelings?
So I will end this with some of my favorite words... Ya gotta keep your head up...