I was hoping this past week, things would calm down a little. Not so much luck. Still a lot going on professionally and personally that has helped me continue on this path of destruction with emotional eating. I feel that I have pretty much hit rock bottom. The only positive side, is the fact that this rock bottom wasn't my initial rock bottom. Yes, there are apparently a plethora of rock bottoms in this absolutely crazy journey.
I am a food addict.
The more I say it, the more it should help... right? I have admitted it many times.... soooo I should just be able to move forward. No? That isn't how it works? Well... shit.
Today is my day though. I almost said "Let's start Monday.". NO. I am not falling into that trap. I have learned way too much in the last 5 years. This starts today and will continue going forward.
The hard part is routine. With so much going on, it is hard to gather a routine. Which I need. I need that, so I don't talk myself out of things. Like I have in the past week. I am going to try though. Really, really try.
I already have the days planned out that I am going to run. I am going to try the new app from work that has a TON of work out videos. If I can't run, I will do those. They even have a 20 minute one. NO excuses.
Food. Food is a big issue for me. I just need to get back to meat and veggies for lunch. We will start there. Baby steps.
My small victories are back in full swing. It will get better... it has to get better.
Otherwise I will have no clothes to wear once spring really hits!
I am doing the exact same thing. On one hand, I wonder why I am doing this when I have so much going right like I'm up for a promotion at work and getting engaged this spring. Yet I am eating in a way I really haven't in a long time. I'm scared and hate how I look and feel right now, but can't seem to stop. I guess even positive things can be stressful. I'm in the same boat though...if something doesn't change, I will have no clothes come spring!
ReplyDeleteI've gained 7 pounds this winter. I keep trying to get back on track and then there is delicious food in front of me and I can't say no, and then I eat waaayyyy too much. I've also been pretty lazy, but I am forcing myself to get back into the running routine more. I have just been running two miles every time I go and probably completely lost the endurance I gained from training for the Turkey Trot. Are you able to do the Leap Year run with me next Monday?
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