Haven't heard the word "wog" in a while have you?!
I have had an upper respiratory infection for a about a week. I got it right after the big Applefest 5k run on the Saturday before. Thank goodness it was AFTER!
The run was amazing. As you knew it would be of course. When have I not expressed how "amazing" my big runs are? I had a bunch of friends run and a bunch walk their first 5k. So happy to get everyone together for a fun fitness time! The whole time I kept thinking of the year before... the things I said, where I ran and the sign Nate wanted me to run to! It was an awesome experience. 1 year later and I shaved about 2 1/2 minutes off of my original time. (Forgot home many hills there were!)
So here we are, getting over a uri and having to run a 10 mile run in 3 weeks. Not the best time to be down and out. I am starting back up with things and that was with a wog tonight. It seems that I have learned a thing or two. It is okay to walk and start off slow again. I wasn't upset that I walked most, but I can tell you I was damn happy when I was running. I did a little over 4.5 miles in over an hour.
I know more than a few people who would be shocked I wasn't upset. I have always been pretty hard and whined a little when I couldn't do what I expected of myself. I am not going to get anywhere though if I push too hard before I am 100%... slowly learning.
While out and about tonight I thought about the "goal" that I set for myself. The goal of losing the rest of this weight by the end of the year. Goals are great and everything, but sometimes they can be a little unreal or put way too much pressure on a person. I have been pretty frustrated with my weight loss and I think that is where the goal came from... not with health in mind. It would be great yes... but is it the end all, be all? No.
I will continue learning, growing and living healthy. I will get there. That is the biggest thing to keep in mind... I WILL GET THERE.
Always remember to ... Keep your head up.
I have no doubt you will accomplish all you goals, but I am glad you are taking some of the pressure off yourself with your timeline. I totally get where you're coming from about setting a deadline though because I feel the same way sometimes. Like in the last 4 months or so with all my ups and downs, I've probably only lost about 10 lbs. Sometimes I feel like I'm a failure because of that, even though I've made so many strides in my overall fitness during that time that is not reflected on the scale. I'm so close to that goal that I can taste it, but at the same time that last 40 lbs seems like a million with the way the weight is coming off lately. It is tempting to try to push yourself into losing more by setting a deadline, but I know for me sometimes pressure like that causes me to unconsciously sabotage myself. I'm glad you've gotten to the point where you can set a goal but also know that if you don't reach it by a certain time, it doesn't mean you never will. You're a force to be reckoned with ;)
ReplyDeleteAs always we have the same thoughts :) The last 50 for me has been pretty brutal. Losing and gaining the same weight. Frustrating.... but again not the end of the world. We got this... always learning!
Delete