I know what I need to do. I know life gets busy. I know it isn't going to be easy. I know. I know. I know.
I am trying so hard to get back into that routine. I lost my rhythm it seems. I have that motivation one second and then the next it is gone. Life has changed and I am getting a little too cozy... aka settling. I feel like I have been settling with my work outs. Settling with my food choices, my activity and just going through the motions.
I am hoping that committing to the race and getting my focus back will jump start my motivation once again. I am not failing...just coasting. That isn't me. That wasn't the me that got myself through a half marathon and that has lost over 130 lbs.. I also know that I am focusing on that number too much, but right now it seems like I have to.
Not only do I put pressure on myself, but I feel the pressure of others when they ask "So now how much have you lost?". I know it is curiosity and not meant to put pressure on me. I just hate giving the same number that I have given for the last how many other times they have asked. It is stressing me out a little each time that it happens. I was happy to talk about it when I was losing consistently... I just haven't had anything to celebrate lately and that isn't helping the motivation.
So. Trying to stay positive. Trying to get back. Trying not to pressure myself. The one thing that I need to remember...