Tuesday, December 4, 2012

Feeling the big 3 letter F word...

Warning: I will be whining in this post.

The past few weeks have been a roller coaster of numbers on the scale. I got down to 195 and was super pumped... now I am at 197 and I am super pouty. I have started a new workout and have been trying to keep my food in check. However, it was 2 weekends of eating out and adult beverages, not the best combination to lose weight.

I am wanting to not be so obsessed with that number on the scale, but it seems the more I "try" the more obsessed I am over it. I am sick and tired of seeing 197 on that scale. I know in my heart that I will lose the weight eventually, but in my head... I want it gone now! :)

So here I sit feeling like I am still overweight at 197 (ridiculous I know and you can yell at me next time you see me.) and I don't know what to do. I even look at myself in the window when I walk across the sky walk at work and feel F*t.

My next step is to reel in my food choices once again and keep the calories in check. My fitness has changed recently so I am hoping that is still good to go for awhile. I have been through this before, but the same feelings of frustration just seem more powerful at the moment than my feelings of success.

End of pouting.

<Side note: I KNOW 2 lbs. is a stupid thing to be irritated with, but when you have been over 300 lbs. every lb. seems to be important. I will shake this,but needed to whine a bit. Thanks for reading!>


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    1. I hope so Erin! I just get too obsessed about the number some times :(

  2. Hey, sometimes you need to let a little whining out! Even though you know rationally that 2 lbs isn't a big deal, sometimes emotionally it can seem like a very big deal. And if that's how you're feeling, go ahead and vent all you want!

    I don't know about you, but when I don't do so great on the scale, I sometimes get freaked out that I am sliding back to how I used to be. And if where you used to be is over 300 lbs, that is a super scary idea. It doesn't seem to matter that I know rationally that I wouldn't gain all my weight back overnight.

    1. Thanks Kristen, that fear of gaining the weight back will be stuck with me for a very long time. Thanks for keeping the motivation going, we can do this!!

  3. Nothing wrong with whining!! But, I'm still going to punch you when I see you next ;)

    1. :) I will deserve it I am sure. Sometimes you just need that whine lol